Ehsas-e-nadamt

main is KHayal mein tha bujh chuki hai aatish-e-dard
bhaDak rahi thi mere dil mein jo zamane se

main is KHayal mein tha ho chuki hai aag wo sard
wo ek shola-e-dard-afrin mata-e-hayat

main is KHayal mein tha main use bacha na saka
guman ye tha ki wo ek shoala-e-hayat-afroz

hawa-e-paris-o-london ki tab la na saka
main sochta tha ki shayad bhula chuka hun tujhe

jo apne dil ki kahani tujhe sunana thi
wo apne saz-e-ghazal par suna chuka hun tujhe

kuchh aisa mujh ko guman tha tufail-e-marham-e-waqt
koi bhi ghaw ho ek roz bhar hi jata hai

zamana waqt ke parde pe har ghaDi shayad
naya tilism nai dilkashi sajata hai

jo hain rafiq-e-dil-o-jaan un aansuon ki qasam
tere huzur abhi tak jo bar pa na sake

jinhen hai tujh se siwa teri aabru ka KHayal
jo dil mein ruk na sake aur mizha tak aa na saka

mila hun aaj main tujh se to waswase ye tamam
miTe KHayal ki duniya se misl-e-naqsh-bar-ab

pata chala ki wo shoala bujha nahin hai abhi
bas itni baat hai ab jal raha hai zer-e-naqab

naqab-e-waqt-o-masafat ke do dabiz hijab
guzar gai teri furqat mein zindagi jitni

adn ki subh ki paris ki raat mein guzri
dil o nazar ke kisi wardat mein guzri

ki ek hasina-e-alam se baat mein guzri
faqat wo ek nadamat hai aur kuchh bhi nahin

aur aaj meri nadamat ka ye shadid ehsas
har ek sans mein mujh se sawal karta hai

hawas hai ishq se kitne qadam? do-chaar qadam?
kiya hai fasla un mein kai hazar qadam?

piccadily mein bhi hum yaad the tujhe ki na the
pigalle mein bhi KHalish koi dil mein thi ki na thi

wo sham thames ki ab bhi nazar mein hai ki nahin
ki jab hawas ki nazar par koi hijab na tha

wo sath-e-bahr pe raqsan jahaz ka arsha
aur us pe chaar taraf ek nur ka aalam

ki jaise barq-e-tajalli-e-tur ka aalam
walentia mein wo raqs-e-barahnagi ke tilism

teri nigah-e-tamasha ko kuchh jhijak to na thi
ye ek sawal ki jis ke hazar pahlu hain

main ek lamhe ko jab in pe ghaur karta hun
to sochta hun ki main tujh se ab malun na malun